Our Existence

haha..seems lik i very boh liao..during my CoS duty v sian,den took alot of time to tink abt many many stuff..

for instance tt day when we're outfield,one of my fellow specs asked me the qn:"have u ever wondered why mosquitos even exist..they dun contribute in anyway n they make hell lot of a nuisance.."
hm..n tt sparked off a chain of tots...

casestudy 1:
i used to hate the birds in my cookhouse..nothing to do then sit on our seats..but then..today..when i was having my prata,lots of irritating flies were lik banging themselves against the lamps n the tables makig a hell lot of noise..n here comes the hero...the birds! they hop here hop there..in the end,no more flies! yey! :)

casestudy2:
there r all kinds of ppl..fat,thin,handsome pretty..if i din rmb wrongly,the sajc duno wad festival,which mx pulled my class guys to go..then there's this highlight of the carnival where these super duper tall guys from israel were being paraded around the sch..not tt these kinda tings neh happen before..lik how we guys lik to ogle at girls walking around..but den the idea of inviting them to be a exhibit..hm..

what am i doing here? what's my purpose? can i contribute in anyway? haiz..too many too many tings to tink abt..headache..heartache oso..haiz..

is it so hard to juz have someone that cares n msg u occasionally when they tink of u..is it juz so hard.. :(

普通朋友

等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友...

TaiWan!

heyhey! its been a long time again since i last blogged..Looking back,the past 14weeks have passed really really fast..and now,its time for me to go taiwan le..When i return,i'll be passing out the same week as a 3rd sgt..

seriously i'm not sure whether i'm capable or i'm knowledgable enough to take care of the lives of 6men below me..from the past experience of me taking up leadership roles..i din perform at all..in fact i make those beneath me suffer q abit..haiz..

this feeling hit me alot these few days before i'm flying off..its so so near to being a sgt already..which alot of my course mates would want to be desperately as they hate trainee life..maybe because of this,i didn't enjoy myself as i usually did when i went out w my TSG yest..

Neh mind,i shall cast all this feelings aside..since it's a one way street..i shall juz try my bestest bestest to be the bestest bestest commander i can be! be someone that my men respect n assuringly rest their lives in my hand,knowing that i'll ensure their safety and welfare! YES! OOSH!

man,although this is not the first time i'm going overseas,but the feeling of leaving home still q bothers me..missing everything here..went to take a LoOOOoooOoong walk at my central..realised that the breadshop uncle has became so much older le..n a bigger belly liaoz..while mine's becoming smaller! :P the barber shop as usual has no business..then the char kuay teow guy has become more lazy le..last time he'll juz stand beside his wok and immediately respond to any orders..now..tt guy ah..i tell him i wan,then he still sit there happily drink his kopi n slowly walk to his wok..ChAo TuRtLe!

my deepest regret for this trip..oh well,has to be the tot of me not being able to spend the day with my most LOVED one on her birthday..That time on valentine's day oso,duno y so suay on weekday..fear not LOVED one,i'll make it up to u when i come back k? ;) and to all those that know who is my LOVED one,do msg her on her birthday with all ur greeting n best wishes..these little thoughts do brighten and make a person's day! hehe..

alrite then,guess i'll stop here..gota do the final preparations before i leave le..do take care everyone,and lets meet when i come back! thanks alot to my TSG again for giving me e last dota game before i leave! hehe..

baoz zhao!

parade!!

man,was last week a fast week to pass by..as compared to the week before..Last week was a relaxed week consisting of parade rehearsals only..n i do mean ONLY! lik we'll gather in the early hours even before the sun is up, n start rehearsal already..and we'll do it over n over n over again until its lunch..n we'll carry on after that till dinner..n my feet,ankles n knees are hurting from it..My section-mate commented that i was being to "hard" on myself..literally..like really banging my feet hard for every baris sedia..calculating in this way..by the time i'm 30 ah.i'll need some walking aid.. O_o

oh yes,for the first time,i was contingent commander! get to stand in front of my whole course! It's a scary experience..like you feel so naked..any slight mistakes n twitches of any muscles that you're not suppose to move will be deemed as obvious by the SUPER-SIGHTED offices!

anyways,am very tired now.,haven't slept much last night..but finally got satisfy bitbit of my desire for bao sao.. :P hehe..k la k la..got to go prepare for marist concert later..

baoz zhao!

NBC!!!

AHhHHh! Its onli a few hours before its time for the start of the NBc..many competitions we have participated with Tj band,however each one gets more and more fun..not forgetting to mention more and more stressful..

I think i'm most probably under a REED"S CURSE! How Cum Everytime when there's a concert or competition..my reed will so suay suay die the day before the competition sia..SUX SUX SUX!!! REED INSTRUMENT SUX MAN! Next time i'll invent a metal reed so tt my playing is not dependent on the stupid reed..but i do pray hard..together with inez's prayers..hope tt both our reeds will survive n pull through until after our performance tomorrow..

After tomorrow,the following bookouts will be aimless saturdays where we juz sit in front of the tv,switching from channel to channel thinking of what to do..Band is really really a nice place to be..especially when your in TJ band! it rox big time man..N together with the though of wearing our sch uniforms again..wah..SHIOK man..in my army terms..ORGAS BABY! :P

all the best best to tj tomorrow..later i mean..hehe..

mum's now high up in the tibet mountains..wonder how she's doing man..should be very fun up there right..get to see those super duper nice sunrise you only get to see through internet photos live..well..just have to wait till she comes back next week..

BaOz ZhAo!!!

the closing of chapter19..

well well well, the wars of the past 19yrs have finally ended..only to give way to the beginning of another one..one of adulthood..masculine strong one! :)

happpy birthday to myself! it wasn't at all the kind of birthday one was expecting..The kind that was spent on a monday in camp..with myself waking up even before chickens, doing the usual daily dreadful runs, fingers kana KIAP by my weapon, and attempts by my bunkmates to strip me..but that ended well as it was i that stripped them of their pants! BWHAHAHA!

many many thanks to my loved ones that remembered my birthday.. seriously to me, the best present one can receive is another remembering his birthday and a birthday msg at 0000h.

even more thanks to my loved one who underwent many hardships,time constrains, and being niao to give me the bestest bestest birthday surprise ever! man,damn smart sia..this time even know how to make use of resourses hor..like my family..haha..

next sunday is NBC! We'll be armoured in TJ sch U and blazer..All the hard work we've put in.. Just for the 15mins on stage..Good luck to Us all! Lets hope the tj magic will carry on shining on us! For college,for nation!

baoz zhao!

the closing of chapter19..

wad a wonderful singapore!

People always say tt u haf to appreciate tings u haf in front of u b4 they disappear..but how many of us does actually comply with that..

back in the comfort of home(serangoon),
i though if the times in miss my home(serangoon) when i'm at camp..
and in the jungle of mandai marsling and cck,everybody lornes to get back home(camp)..
what a irony.. :S

with lazy blues playing fr my speakers,i've got to thank army for making me appreciate my family,home,girl and friends..

what a wonderful singapore!